I'm kind of sad right now. This Facebook experience (still only several days old for me) has been a good experience thus far. I'm seeing how much I missed after leaving my church back in 2004. I left because the pastor was preaching a message against 12 step principles. I don't think it was intended in a bad way. I don't think the pastor has personally been involved in a 12 step group and he was teaching from what he knew. It's just that I have grown up with being told what to think and believe by my father and I don't respond very well when someone speaks out against something that is working for me. I felt that it was too conflicting for me to attend a church that was speaking against something that was very real and good in my life, so I left.
I did what I thought was best. I am trying to accept my path in life as that which my Higher Power has put me on and is walking with me. I'm sad now, though. I was looking through a friend's pictures on Facebook and seeing the various theatre productions he has been in which I have missed makes me miss my old church family. What really sucks is that there was a church split in 1996 and many of my close friends stayed with the denomination and I and my husband stayed with the church which left the denomination. This contributed to the difficulties I experienced in my marriage because I didn't have the same support group I had before. No one did anything wrong. I accept responsibility for my choices. It's only that hindsight is 20/20.
Recently (within the past year or 2, I believe) there was another church split. It appears that almost all of my former friends and acquaintances are now gone from my old church. I visited the church yesterday and saw only a handful of people I knew. This could be a good thing for me -- participating in a church that is having a new start. I miss my old friends, though.
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